I've lost my home.
{A Letter.}

Saturday, August 15, 2009

Dear Home,

I don't know how exactly to write you a letter because, well... Where should I send it? You see, I think that maybe I've lost you.

I think I've lost my home.

For so much of my life, I lived in the same small town, in the same big house. Then I moved to a bigger town and a smaller house before moving to an even bigger city and a string of even smaller apartments. Through all of it, though, I lived in one state surrounded by green.

There was always rain. There was always water. Even more than that, there was always family.

Now I find myself in the desert... with no green, with no rain, with no water and with no family nearby. Maybe that place in my past was never meant to be my home. I always longed for sunshine and I always longed for love. I have both of those here and I wouldn't trade them for anything, but I miss the comfort of the rain. I miss the solitude of my hometown. I miss the company of my mother and the cheeks of my nephews.

I miss home, wherever you are.

Love, me

{image via anthropologie}


  1. awwww. so sweet. i miss my home too.

  2. I feel the same way about snow sometimes. It just doesn't snow as much here as it does at my parents' house. And it's not the same.

  3. :( i hope you can feel home again soon. levi started a painting about this concept awhile ago. he hasn't been able to finish it. i think maybe he feels like he has a home again now that we live together. but after his mom died, he definitely felt like his home was gone. you'll get there again. just give yourself time, and don't feel guilty if it takes you a long time to feel at home again.

  4. awww, sorry to hear. hang in there!

  5. I'm feeling the same way right now. I just left my family and my life behind and I'm now homeless in NYC. I'm struggling desperately to find an apartment and somehow bring "home" to it but no luck yet. I miss things I never thought I would miss and feel really alone. What I keep reminding myself is that there is give and take in all things, and everything worth doing requires sacrifice. You are sacrificing some things for love and new experiences and you will be better for it in the end.

  6. Just roll over hug that man candy of yours! I hope your homesickness gets better!!

  7. i know what you mean... i miss home too... my real home =( where mom and dad are...

  8. oh I'm so sorry.....vegas will soon feel like your home and the rain and the green will be a wonderful place to visit, but the heat and the sun will be where your heart feels like it belongs:)

  9. your blog is wonderful! i read your entry dedicated to your father. my dad passed away at age 52 in november of 07 and it has been so difficult. i know that sudden pain of such a great loss! i love all of your entries and plan on checking back often.