My boyfriend and I just finished watching all five seasons of Six Feet Under. I had been urged to watch this show for years by people I love, but for some reason I dragged my feet. Even when I initially started it, I wasn't sure I could engage with the characters and the plot because it was so intense and had such underlying melancholy.
What exactly was I expecting? Um, hello? It's a show about a family living and working in a funeral home. Not exactly a bouquet of kittens.
What I wasn't expecting was how lovely and flawed and perfectly human the characters were, almost like real family members. This show touched me in ways that most do not and sometimes after finishing an episode, I would tell Jenner that I needed to be alone to cry in the bathroom.
These episodes left me missing my own father (even more), loving my own family (even more) and appreciating the difficult, brave and beautiful journey that is life (even more).
My family and I talk a lot about death... even before my father died. Where do we go after we die? Do we go anywhere? Does everything stop or does it finally begin? Knowing we will all lose each other eventually, what makes the heartbreak of life worth living through?
If you haven't seen this series yet, you have to. Really. It's funny, it's provocative and it makes you think about your life in ways you might not have before.
This scene between David and his deceased father, Nathaniel, is one of my favorite moments of the series. (My very favorite scene is the last few minutes of the last episode. I believe it is - hands down - the most beautiful series ending in the history of television. I can't possibly post that, however, for those of you who haven't seen it yet.)
What if it is? I think that question, whether or not it really is as simple as being lucky to be alive, is really the question of the show and, perhaps, the question of our lives.
PS) I have a crush on Nate. Oh, and watching Claire made me go in and have my bangs cut last week and schedule an appointment to return to being a redhead next week.