2009 - Love, change and stupidity.

Thursday, December 31, 2009

Last year, only a few posts into my new blog, I posted the 2008 edition of "The things I know for sure. (I think.)" It remains one of my very, very favorites. This year, however, I'm going to switch things up a bit and really just want to sit and chat about 2009.

This was a lovely, life-changing year for me. It was also scary as hell.

Let's see... Where to begin? I finished up my graduate studies, as well as an internship providing therapy to the chronically mentally ill. My favorite line of my internship? When I had to tell a client, "You see, therapy isn't really about you convincing me you're the devil." I had my supervisor rolling with that one. So, after what felt like fourteen years, I received my Master's Degree in Psychology. {Perhaps even better, I did it next to a friend who stole my heart from the very first day of grad school, Jennifer Davila Beckwith - or as I like to call her, Beaver. She had me the moment she said to me in our first class, "I haven't even cracked this book once." Oh, Beaver, you're my girl. You've changed me in ways I can never wrap words around.}

The biggest, best and most challenging part of my year was packing my bags and moving to the desert. And all for love. just a small town girl in Las Vegas. It's almost comical and if you had told me a couple of years ago a move to Vegas would be in my future, I would have died laughing. In fact, on one of my last - and least favorite - trips here in 2006, I swore I would never come back. I think that's the thing I love most about life, you just never know what the universe has in store for you.

Moving away from my family and from my rainy, beautiful home has been, hands down, one of the hardest decisions I've ever made. There are days that the ache for my loved ones is palpable. However, what I can tell you I know for sure is that I have never been happier. Living with the person you love (a first for both my boyfriend and me) is really hard and takes, at least in my opinion, a tremendous amount of work and compromise. And, let's be honest, some days we'd both just rather watch 30 Rock, but we keep working on it and we keep growing. Oh, and we keep laughing. All the time. The decision to move here and live with Jenner has resulted in getting to have a slumber party every day with the person who makes me laugh the most, my best friend.

I think, overall, this year can be summed up in three words: Love, change and stupidity. Deciding to move away and start a new, neon life in what has to be the craziest city on the planet has probably been the dumbest move in the history of my life. The dumbest and the best, that is. I still get, "You moved to Vegas?!" all the time. Even my closest friends and family have had to start defending this choice to people (big shout out to my biggest supporter and bff, Carina). You know what, though? It's these brave, stupid choices we make - whether we're chasing love, or a dream, or simply ourselves - that change us into the people we want to be. I feel like, on the last day 0f 2009, I'm a lot closer to being that person.

Oh, and I'm really excited to say that big things are in store for 2010. I am on the brink of a career upgrade (one that I'm positively giddy about) and I see a whole lotta travel and writing, volunteer work and love on the horizon. Big dreams for the future, dreams I can't wait to share, but I've got a NYE (and a hell of a dress) to get ready for and I know you do too.

Thank you, thank you for being a part of my life this year. I can't tell you what this has meant to me. I wish you the happiest, healthiest and most hopeful of New Year's. Xoxo!

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  1. hahaha! best sum up ever - love, change, and stupidity. i love it. and i love you. happy new year, kathleen!

  2. Happy New Year, my friend! So glad that 2009 brought you into my life! Have fun tonight!

  3. I love your summary! Good luck in 2010

  4. 2009 was summed up beautifully. Nice work, friend!

  5. So I just stumbled across this post and it really made me smile.

    This year I did pretty much exactly what you did and made a suprise move halfway across the country to move in with my boyfriend. Only significant difference is that I moved from Nottingham, England to Glasgow, Scotland. And you're right - it's amazing but it's also much harder than I thought it would be. (But of course, I wouldn't change it for the world!)

    Katie @ http://thedisappearingangel.blogspot.com


  6. You taking risks inspires me to take my risks. You're doing amazing and I know it's only going to get better. 2009 was a shit show for me, but I found you, met you, and now we are bugs forever so some good came out of it, and now we can lean on each other yay. Love my bug.

  7. Awww... so sweet. As I've said before, "I've never been much for sororites, but our friendship is worth way more than the 90k I spent to find you." Something like that, anyway. I so miss you and yet I'm bursting with pride for ya when I think about the big chances you take for love. I love ya and your big ole heart. My life wouldn't be the same w/out ya.

  8. I picked up and moved too (twice now) to a new place and people thought, and still think I'm crazy. The dichotomy of the newness is amazing...kudos to you! I think we both know there aren't many that could make such a bold move and actually survive!