Growing Pains.

Monday, January 25, 2010



Saturday started out really beautifully. There was a whole lot of sunshine, a little bit of work, a trip to the gym and the possibility of seeing Katy Perry at the new club Haze that night. I was happy, excited and proud of myself.

I don't really know how to explain what happened next, but the universe had different plans for me on that fourth Saturday of 2010. During a quick catch-up conversation with my wonderful sister, everything sort of came crashing down around me. I got one heck of a wake up call and in a split-second, had to make the decision whether or not I wanted to keep doing things the same old way I have been or if I had the courage to look at myself, thoroughly and honestly, and begin to change.

So, change it is.

I know, I'm being awfully (and probably very annoyingly) vague, but that's just how this post is gonna have to roll. Please forgive me. What I will say is that I am determined to make some positive changes in my life and it's going to take a lot of work and a lot of honesty. (As well as a lot of love and patience.)

So yeah, I'm going through some growing pains right now except, sadly, Kirk Cameron is no where in sight. What started out as a beautiful Saturday ended as a terribly difficult (and perhaps even more beautiful) Saturday that just might change my life.

I'll keep you posted. :)

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13 comments:

  1. I had a dream and you were in it. We were taking tests and I scored 100%, and you got a 98.5. Not bad, Biz, not bad. I'm trying to remember the theme music to Growing Pains, but Family Ties is seriously c-blocking me.

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  2. Wow! I'm so sorry and I'm so happy for you! Life can be so hard, but it's the hard stuff that really brings out the best in life. I'm sure you already know that, but I wanted to say it again in case you have a hard time believing yourself when things are rough {I know I do}. Sending all my Kirk Cameron love your way! :)

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  3. oh dear. not sure what is up, but sometimes it seems we have to go through hell before we are motivated to make changes. all i can say is been there and trying to do that! :) good luck!!!

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  4. You're a strong buggy. We can do it. :)

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  5. Wow! Whatever it is, I wish you the best! It sounds like they are great things on the horizon!

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  6. @Todd - show me that smile again, don't waste another minute on your crying...hope that helped.

    Well, they aren't called growing pains for nothing. I remember having actual growing pains in my legs when I was 12 or so. And that was such a hard age, I'd never go back to it, yet I wouldn't be the same person I am today if I'd skipped middle school.

    --maija
    shesagoodegg.wordpress.com

    p.s. it is entirely possible I know you, Todd - were you on the Yakima River trip this past summer???

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  7. Um, you better! This post is full of suspense.

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  8. If you draw a circle and think of it like a clock. 12 o'clock is pure happiness and 11:59 is pure misery. They are right next to eachother. Can't have one without the other.
    Morgan

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  9. i hope that you are okay and happy that you have such a positive outlook!

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  10. Maija -- yes!! "Show me that smile again." Thanks for that, it's a good one to sing around the office today. And, yes, I am the same Todd from the famous Yakima rafting adventures!!

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  11. Stay strong and everything will turn out good.

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  12. Very vague indeed! I hope all is well.

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