The only place left to go is home.

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

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After my very big disappointment last week, I've felt really lost. Unsure of what exactly my next big move is, my sister generously offered to fly me home for a couple of weeks to spend time with family and regroup.

So, I flew into WA on Sunday - exactly fifteen hours after my ticket was purchased - and spent the last two days laughing with my sister and loving on my nephews in Seattle. Today, I hopped on the train and headed to the ocean.

So, here I am. In the smallest of small towns. With my mother, two dogs and no cell reception. I miss my boyfriend already, but I have to tell you... I am so at peace here.

For the next couple of weeks, I plan on mostly wearing pajama pants, having long conversations about life with my mother, telling my nephews repeatedly that they are my very favorite people on the planet, taking walks on the beach with the pups, enjoying wearing a hoodie away from the Vegas heat, reading myself to sleep, giggling with my best friend, listening to the rain and simply taking care of myself in this small town.

Because, sometimes, the only place left to go is home.


  1. washington will always feel like home to me. i moved here in 05 and knew right away it was exactly where i needed to be. i hope that you enjoy your visit back home :)

  2. I've never been to Washington but always envision it as being a place where I could really relax and "regroup". How sweet of your sister to do that for you - family time always helps in getting my feet back on the ground and they always know how to help you get brushed off. Enjoy your time at home!

  3. next time.... TAKE ME WITH YOU! :D I could use the same escape right now... love and miss you <3 and don't forget to come back to me! xoxox

  4. oh honey!! i'm so sorry about your setback. that's crushing. and yes, i could tell you all about how this won't be able to stop you from doing what you were meant to do, which is totally true, but i think it's most important to just let yourself grieve the loss of your plans right now (as i'm sure you know). therapist to therapist, all i have to say is life sucks sometimes. :) but you're doing the best thing you can for yourself! i wish i had a sweet little town where i could deal with life. i really hope washington gives you just what you need... and those nephews of course! i mean how can life be too terrible with adorable children nearby?! :) hang in there dear!

  5. I like this part the best- "simply taking care of myself " GOOD. You're tapped out, bug and you need to re-charge and maybe this clusterfuck happened to give you this opportunity? I don't know, but I'm so glad you have such a wonderful family and "home" to go to and I hope you are already feeling better and I know you'll tackle everything that's needs work but big ups for taking care of the most important thing-you.

    I need my bug, and I like her happy and healthy!!! I like her no matter what, but yaknowwhatimean. Sebastian loves you.

  6. Very true. Like they say, home is where the heart is.