A year ago today, I sat at Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf sipping my nonfat, iced chai tea and wrote a post about my upcoming birthday party that night and my hopes for the new year that would start on my birthday, the following day. This year, I'm back at Coffee Bean, sipping the same drink and writing about my big day tomorrow. This year, however, I crutched in from my car and am still hopped up on pain pills. I don't have the energy for a big shindig on my birthday this year, but am looking forward to some time at Globe Salon pampering myself and a dinner with my love.
I'm not going to lie, things have been really hard as of late, friends. I'm a big believer in the pendulum theory. So, in order to feel the very high highs I am blessed to experience on a pretty regular basis, I have to endure the low lows I am faced with these days. Have no fear, however, I am enduring and, honestly, I feel stronger and more hopeful than I have in a very long time. I'm also a big believer in the fact that sometimes our lives need a shakeup and I definitely got mine in more than a couple ways recently.
My surgery went really well and I might as well tell you all now that I have an implant... in my ankle, thankyouverymuch. Remember in a previous post when I talked about just letting go and resting for a while? Yeah, um, I had no idea what I was in for. Unlike after my knee surgery, I am unable to put any pressure on my foot and have to rely solely on crutches for the next two weeks. Add the fact that the bathroom in my condo is on the second floor, you can probably understand why I have to constantly lift myself up the stairs on my rear. The good news? I'm getting stronger physically everyday to match my newly increased emotional strength. More good news? Okay, okay. My best friend and sister came last weekend and I can't say enough good things about their visit. It wasn't all easy, but it was all amazing. They helped me, supported me, confronted me on a few things, let me break down several times, lifted me back up, made me laugh and pushed me around in a wheel chair. I am more blessed than I can ever, ever say to have those two. (More on that trip in an upcoming post.) Oh, and just to prove my boyfriend's theory that I live a third of the year in hotels, one of my best gals, Katie, is coming next weekend for some much, much needed time together.
Looking back at this last year in my life, I really feel like I am right where I should be. That said, I know I didn't push myself this year the way I deserved in order to live the life of my dreams. 2009 was a huge year for me - finishing grad school, moving across multiple states for love, living apart from my loved ones, starting my career - and I'm afraid I stalled a little in 2010. Well, friends, I am confident this coming year will be my best yet, no matter where it takes me. I've enlisted the help of a badass friend of mine and plan on taking the world by storm this year. Before I get too ahead of myself, however, I'm going to give myself just a little more time to recuperate, to read, to nap, to talk to my friends, to laugh with my hilarious boyfriend, to watch movies that make me deliriously happy and to love the hell out of myself.
At the end of the day, with all the hurt and the tragedy and the broken bones and hearts, it really is a wonderful world.