The Latest Chapter.

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

Hello, friends. Every now and again, I like to write a good ol' fashioned "here's what I've been up to" post to let my friends and family outside of Las Vegas know that, yes, I'm still around. So, here goes...

My biggest development as of late is that I have a new counseling job. I'm really, really, really excited about this opportunity and am feeling inspired and challenged already. Last week took me to gorgeous Couer d'Alene, ID for a few days of training with a coworker I'm already loving. I think this is going to be a great fit for me and the perfect place to launch the beginning of my new career. {Oh, and have I mentioned how excited I am to decorate my new office?!}

I am thrilled to report that, after close to a year, I have an almost entirely limp-free walk. This may not sound like a big deal to you, but - trust me - it is. Three surgeries in eight months took a big toll on my mobility and in July when my family was here, it really hit me how hard the simple act of walking had become. It was not only really painful, but also embarrassing to see people in their eighties pass me on The Strip. So, I made the decision that I needed to strengthen my foot and got myself to the gym at least three times a week. Six weeks later, my foot is getting better every day and I've managed to lose about ten pounds. Win, win.

What else? My best friend will be here two weeks from today for our now annual September Vegas visit. Remember last year? One of the best times of my life. I can't wait to introduce Samson to his Aunt Carina. Speaking of the puppy, I'm falling more and more in love with him on a daily basis. It takes almost everything in me to keep myself from posting pics of him on here every day.

I'm ending the month of August realizing just how much things have changed for the better in my life over the course of the summer. I'm a happy girl and I hope you are, too.

All You Need is Love.

Thursday, August 25, 2011

Sometimes all you need is a weekend with one of your best friends, a few floats in the pool, a sing-a-long at your favorite piano bar, a couple of cocktails, a dance or two on the dance floor, an introduction between one of your oldest friends and your puppy and a whole lotta laughs.

All you need is love, really... I love you, Danny. Please come back to Vegas soon.

The Biggie Smalls to my Puff Daddy.
{Happy Birthday!}

Monday, August 22, 2011

Happy, happy birthday to my girl, Carina. I've said it before, but you're the Biggie Smalls to my Puff Daddy, the Michelle to my Romy and the DJ Tanner to my Kimmie Gibbler. I wish I could be with you today, but am absolutely bursting with excitement to see you in a few weeks. I hope you have the most fantastic day. I love you, my sister.

My dreams are made of this.

Friday, August 19, 2011

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Better Late Than Never.
{When Exes Apologize.}

Friday, August 12, 2011

Did anyone catch the second season premiere of Bachelor Pad this week? {It's okay. I know you planned your Monday evening around it and caught all three so-bad-they-were-good hours, but don't want to admit it. I completely understand and want you to know your secret is safe with me.} What did you think of Jake trying to make peace with his ex, Vienna? I know, I know. In the scheme of the game, it was probably a really bad move. I didn't notice many scenes with Jake in the "this season on Bachelor Pad" preview and can't help but think the uncoolest man in the history of the Bachelor franchise sealed his fate as the guy who goes home in the second episode with that little olive branch - er, rose - he handed the woman he was once engaged to.

Now call me a sucker (actually please don't, it's really not very nice), but I appreciated Jake's "I'm sorry I yelled at you on national television" speech. Sure, I don't know if it was part of his game strategy, a smart PR move or an emotion actually founded in sincerity and, honestly, I don't even care. Why? Because I am a firm believer in the art of the apology.

We've all been done wrong and, let's just keep it real here, we've all done our own share of wrong. In the game of love, nobody comes out completely innocent. I pride myself on being what I consider a pretty good person, but I've been guilty of being more careless with people's hearts than I should have on occasion. To find the love we've been waiting for, we have to say goodbye to people along the way. Sometimes these goodbyes are messy and often, without meaning to, we eff up our good intentions and leave people hurt. I may have never lost my cool in a televised interview, but if a camera had been around during a few of my heartbreaks, you damn well better believe I would have. So, the question is, what do we do after the dust settles and - maybe even years later - we realize we were unkind, unfair or selfish? Well, as we learned back in kindergarten, we apologize. We own up to our bad behavior and take responsibility.

A couple of months ago, I was on Facebook and found a message waiting for me. When I saw who the sender was, I gasped. It was from a fellow I had dated EIGHT years ago, a man that - although I consider myself a very forgiving person - I still referred to as "the devil." What in the hell was the devil doing messaging me? You got it. He was apologizing. And you know what? It felt good. I deserved it eight years ago, but - hey - better late than never.

The moral of this story? I know I had one... Oh, yeah. Apologize when necessary. Even if it's eight years later. Whether it costs you a reality television competition or just your pride, it's worth it. To Jake, I might be the only one saying it, but well played. To the man I used to call the devil, thanks. I hope you no longer wear socks with sandals. It really wasn't a good look.

The Dog Days of Summer.

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

I hope your summer is going as well as my dog's. Wishing you lots of (puppy) love and sunshine!

On Being Kind & Fighting Hard Battles.

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

"Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle." - Plato

I've taken a little break from blogging this last month and a half-ish for no other reason than because I needed to turn inward. Tune everything around me out and focus on myself. Like a lot of you, I share my kindness easily and openly. I say hello to passing babies and dogs, smile warmly at older gentlemen with great hats, open the door for strangers and buy sandwiches for hungry people. What I'm not always so good at is sharing this same kindness with myself. This summer has been an experiment in doing it anyway.

You see, these have been a rough couple of months and I've had some hard battles to fight. But I am here to tell you that when you remind yourself over and over again that tomorrow will be better, tomorrow eventually finds you. And mine has found me. What did I do until it did? I put one foot in front of the other, I read a lot of books, I floated in the pool, I hugged my boyfriend, I cried on the phone to my mom and I walked my dog. That's right, I was kind and patient and loving. I was all the things to myself that I would be to a friend, a client or a stranger. And as kindness does, it worked.

What did I learn during this time? I'm glad you asked. I learned that even when we are at our most miserable, we remain resilient; I learned that joy is always around the next corner... or at least the one after that and I learned that I have one hell of a cute dog (see for yourself in the photo above).

So, let's stop moping around and get on with it, shall we? Great. See you back here soon. More blogging, good news and happiness to come.