Dear Violet.
{Month Two}

Tuesday, August 14, 2012

Dear Violet,

I don't know how we got here so quickly, sweet girl. It feels like just yesterday I was waiting to meet you and now here we are. With your wide blue eyes and your round, perfect tummy, you are so much bigger than you were when we first met, when your tininess took me by such surprise.

Looking back at your first month, I see now how terrified I was. Terrified by how much I loved this new, little person who needed me so entirely. From the lack of sleep to the constant, frantic middle of the night web searches, those days flew by in a blur of chaos and love. In your second month, I learned to trust my instincts as your mama, slow down and relax into days where the only thing accomplished was snuggling you in the rocking chair, gazing at your beautiful face. (I also learned, much to your dad's delight, I'm sure, how to take a shower when I was home alone with you. This is a big deal in new mama-land, my dear.)

During your second month, we went on the first of many adventures together. We spent two weeks in Washington, one in Seattle at your Auntie Monica's and one in your mama's hometown with Gram. Although I was scared to death to fly with my almost six week old, you were an angel throughout the flight and everyone commented on what a good baby you were. Sitting on that plane, holding you close to me, I beamed with pride for both of us, knowing this was just the beginning of a lifetime of travels and fun. When I was a little girl, my favorite thing in the world was traveling with my family and I was so happy to start sharing this love with you, my little companion. I hope that someday, when you are grown, you will be as excited to see me as I was that day to see my own mother. And our time in Washington was so special. From meeting your adoring cousins, to your Uncles, Michael and Danny, to going to the beach for the first time, to taking long walks every day, your two weeks in the Pacific Northwest were filled with good times and people who just couldn't get enough of you.

In your last letter, I wrote that you smiled at me at the end of your first month. Those smiles kept coming throughout your second month and, I promise, each was as special to me as the first and filled my heart with such happiness. I know that someday soon, I will come to expect your smiles, but for now, they leave me  overwhelmed with delight, wonder and, more than anything else,  love.

I don't know what I did to deserve you, Violet, but the privilege of being your mother is my greatest joy.

I love you, I love you, I love you.

Love, Mama

{photo taken by the lovely Kimberly}